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The Strings That Tie Us Together

by Madds Buckley

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alexstezowski I really like this album. It’s Personal, well written has some great performances and it gives you all the feels. A perfect album for filling that void that can only be filled by singer songwriter music.

Favorite track : A Lot to learn
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1.
Waking Up 04:30
I’m not one for this and that So there’s no reason to question why I always seem to lack The will or determination For any conversation dealing with you And me And where everyone seems to think where we should be But I’m still stuck Haven’t had enough Even if all of this is fruitless I still wanna pursue this It’s right about now I should be waking up from you It’s all I can endure Should be giving up But if memories fade then I’m not waiting anymore Oh I can try But I can’t hide that I’ve Realized what lies inside But I promise I’m waking up after this Back and forth, here and there We never seem to get anywhere Like the questions we always pass off to each other It’s like a circle of yes and no and maybe Call me cautious or call me crazy I’m stuck at a crossroads Of how far the distance should go This feels one sided am I right In saying that I shouldn’t try To get any closer than this? Pull me close push me away Give me moment just to say That if you could give me a try I guarantee, I don’t lie That I’ll back off if it’s not to your liking It’s right about now I should be waking up from you It’s all I can endure Should be giving up But if memories fade then I’m not waiting anymore Oh I can try But I can’t hide that I’ve Realized what lies inside Just give me one chance One last dance Doesn’t have to end up with romance No perfect night, no rose, no kiss 'Cause I’m waking up right after this If the dreams too sweet, I’ll never want to leave It’s right about now I should be waking up From you but it’s too soon I’m sure Should be giving up And if memories fade then I’m not waiting anymore I can try But I can’t hide that I’ve Realized what lies inside But I promise I’m waking up Shake me harder so I wake up I promise I’m waking up, after this. A dream that you wish your heart didn’t make
2.
Midnight late rides, a car crammed full of laughter Who could've guessed Miss Loneliness Found herself away from her disaster A worthwhile endeavor, she’s getting much better At not holding it in If words are too hard she can grab a guitar and let the song begin Well she’s farther than she started, that’s for sure Who could have predicted an ending like this? It’s better than what she ever wanted, so much more With people she’s found she’ll already miss She’s been learning, yearning for someone To sweep her off her feet or maybe tell her that she’s stellar or that they love her at least But she’ll still be content in the end ‘Cause after all, a friend is a friend And that’s still something new, still something sweet Well she’s farther than she started, that’s for sure Who could have predicted an ending like this? It’s better than what she ever wanted, so much more With people she’s found she’ll already miss And the years weren’t perfect But she’s starting to learn that that’s all right She needed punctures that hurt To give some worth to the holes that let down the sky Lit up with stars, what’s mine and what’s ours Doesn’t matter when it’s all that we’ve got And if you agree, that this is to be A final send off And we’re farther than we started, that’s for sure And I’d never have thought we’d end up all like this I hope you’re better than you ever wanted and much more With lights up above A send off with love From the memories you’ve called your own From the place that you’ve called home From the people that you’ve known And who could have thought it would end like this? With people you already miss
3.
I should not be writing a song about you And all the things you unintentionally put me through But I guess at some point this had to come out of my head Better than another contemplating late night in bed You give me Fickle and falsified feelings of fate An overwhelming dread that I’m always too late An overabundance of warnings blaring red I feel like I’m tied to you at the arm 'Cause something aches when you’re too far These days I have to be careful where I tread 'Cause heartstrings pull taut Tangled wires have me caught The strings that tie us together always fray at my end I’m so scared that a pull in the wrong direction Will put an end to this connection The strings that tie us together Always fray at my end Oh, at this point I’m more fearful that my messages don’t send We built ourselves a cup telephone But it always seems to be on hold 'Cause we’re never at the right distance for a tight string So when no one’s around I talk into it And when I’m brave enough I’ll finally do it Spill my heart to you and say everything But heartstrings pull taut Don’t rip 'em out, they’re all I’ve got The strings that tie us together always Fray at my end I’m so scared that a pull in the wrong direction Will put an end to this connection The strings that tie us together Always fray at my end Oh, at this point I’m more fearful that my messages don’t- I need clarification To simplify the situtation Am I the only one retying? I need to let you know That I don’t want to let you go And that’s why it’s so trying I’m new at this that’s obvious But please don’t let it be the scissors to Cut us apart Let me see how I can be Somebody who can Handle holding this The strings that tie us together always Fray at my end I’m so scared that a pull in the wrong direction Will put an end to this fragile The strings that tie us together Always fray at my end Oh, at this point I’m more fearful that my messages Don’t send Don’t send Don’t send Oh, at this point I’m more fearful that you’ll never understand
4.
Ask me your questions I'll respond politely That doesn't mean I’ll be correct Tell me your problems I’ll answer back lovingly But that doesn’t mean I connect If I am the ocean You’re the sky that colors me And I can hide within your blue But if you think I’m sorry Pathetic, unworthy Well I’m just the reflection of you And I’ve tried my best to do you right But you never can take the favor You’ve seen me bleed, and let me be So maybe doing nothing is better But still I don’t wanna give up no I don’t wanna give up on you I know that I’d feel better My face is always wetter With your twisted truths I’ll be weighed down Held to the ground by you But still I don’t wanna give up no I don't wanna give up on you Give me your opinions And I’ll take them as they come But realize that your interpretation of skies Isn't the only one Storm clouds of gray when you don’t get your way Shades of blue if you do Makes me wonder why You don’t ditch the disguise And stop seeing me through a mirror of you And I've tried my best to do you right But something tells me to try to stay And you’ve seen my bleed, and let me be But I just can’t seem to go away 'Cause I don’t wanna give up no I don’t wanna give up on you I know that I’d feel better My face is always wetter With your twisted truth I’ll be weighed down Held to the ground by you But still I don’t wanna give up no I don't wanna give up on you There's something that hangs around That I’m afraid to face Oh, and it dangles out of reach So far away I keep pleading Needing For you to notice I’m not worthless And this would hurt less if I could let you go But still I don’t wanna give up no I don’t wanna give up on you I know that I’d feel better My face is always wetter With your twisted truth I’ll be weighed down Held to the ground by you But still I don’t wanna give up no I don’t wanna give up no I don’t wanna give up no I don’t wanna give up I don't wanna give up no I don't wanna give up on
5.
I’ve been feeling down And I’ve been passing out Hand scripted writings from the wall I’ve been losing sleep I find it hard to eat When emotion fills my lungs The water coming down And I can feel the echoes on their way Hold on tight for the sound wave To rock me back and forth And I need a hand to hold onto But I’m afraid I’d be losing you Tell me your secrets That’s where we can start Conversation opens up With wounds that left scars Nothing too deep, nothing too hard But tell me your secrets It’s a good place to start Listen I’m self-conscious I don’t give out much I stir up the nonsense So it feels like I’m mixing it up But I’m stuck in a cycle A counter clockwise counter attack Seeps into my vessels And I’m thrown right back And these days I feel defenseless But I need to know I’m not the only one with messy senses Tell me your secrets That’s where we can start Conversation opens up With wounds that left scars Nothing too deep, nothing too hard But tell me your secrets It’s a good place to start Give me something back So I know that I’m not pulling you under Show me you won’t crack under the weight 'Cause I’m afraid Oh so afraid Tell me your secrets That’s where we can start Conversation opens up With wounds that left scars Nothing too deep, nothing too hard But tell me your secrets It’s a good place to start
6.
Reset 03:41
You ever keep something locked away? And you know that it’s never gonna see the light of day 'Cause it’s embarrassing Stupid, even Keep it under lock and key, Trust me it’s nothing you want to see But you say you do And this conversations something we’ve been through a lot Look I get it, curiosity has charm And you feel like I’m not giving everything you are But possibilities play in my head Disaster, distress, and oncoming dread Are not the things I need right now There’s only one way one how I need a reset That’s the only way Like a button so I can get out the things I need to say And when I press it You won’t remember a thing But at least you can feel like you were listening I need a Reset, reset, a reset, a reset I need a Reset, reset, a reset Ok, say I spill, what do you do then? Now that it’s out in the open No walls to defend it I’m glad you trust me, but I’m only comfortable so deep And the shallows are as far as I’m willing to be You can tell me you’re sturdy, tell me you’re fine But it’s not like I can read your mind I like the distance There’s more assurance That no one else is gonna fall from my momentary courage 'Cause the body’s not a pretty sight When it’s guts are spilled before your eyes And who will clean the mess? Don’t tell me that you will! Your jobs not to be an emotional refill I need a reset Like some insurance When things go awry Go back to when it was alright I press it You don’t remember a thing So at least I knew you were listening I need a Reset, reset, a reset, a reset I need a Reset, reset, a reset And I know you’re insecure about the weight but so am I But let’s be honest, emotions are cheap to come by We’ve all got our faults We’ve all got our scars Maybe I’d like mine to stay in the dark It’s nothing personal Just a choice And maybe I’m running from the harder one But I don’t think we should build this on sadness and redemption So if you’re gonna do this, there’s only one exception A reset This won’t come up again We tell our little pity tales, and that’s it, the end Press the button when we’re done And we’re back, we’ve begun a clean slate A clean slate A Reset, reset, a reset, a reset I need a Reset, reset, a reset No lingering Distress, distress, distress, distress in a Reset, reset A reset
7.
BOTH Look at me while I’m still here Look at me before I vanish Do you have any idea JOE Look at me while I’m still awake MADDS About all I can take Look at me while I love you JOE Before I undo it all BOTH Just give me a sign Just a whisper That when you see me on the other side You’ll recognize that I’m there Just give me a call I’ll give it my all But how can you prove it to me this time you promise to care MADDS Look at the cuts and scrapes JOE Look at the cuts and scrapes MADDS Before they all wash away JOE Before they all wash away BOTH Do you have any idea MADDS Look at the bruises grow BOTH In places not to show You should be much much smarter than this you know Just give me a sign Just a whisper That when you see me on the other side You’ll recognize that I’m there Just give me a call I’ll give it my all But how can you prove it to me this time you promise to care JOE No guarantee MADDS No guarantee JOE That you are me MADDS That you are me JOE But I can’t BOTH See you when I meet your eyes JOE Fall silently MADDS Fall silently BOTH Will I ever be Anything more than a reflection JOE Of who I used to be MADDS Just give me a sign JOE A sign MADDS Just a whisper JOE Whisper MADDS That when you see me on the other side BOTH You’ll/I’ll recognize that I’m there MADDS Just give me a call JOE I’ll give it my all BOTH But how can you prove it to me this time you promise to care MADDS Look at me while I’m still here JOE Look at me before I vanish BOTH Do you have any idea MADDS Look at me while you’re still awake JOE About all I can take BOTH Look at me while I love you Before I undo it all So when you look in the mirror Do you see anyone at all?
8.
Watch the clock And wonder who said that time flys by Keep counting hours and minutes and seconds In the same interval of time If all you can do is waste away In waiting for the hands to change You might as well be alone in this room for good So tick tock watch it mocking You and every little move that you make It says "don't you dare look away Leaving will be your mistake" Do you wanna step through through that door Of liars and cheats and scoundrels who Will tear apart every piece of you And chain your soul down with 'em too Little girl you've got a lot to learn Of how the world will treat your turn If I were you I'd never speak Never let it turn on me You've got a mind and a mouth and a body attached But let's be honest they're not matching up You think of just how everything would be better If you could just shut up But the worlds not that forgiving And if you keep on sitting Patience runs thin like the wire you're on So tick tock watch it mocking You and every little move that you make It says "don't you dare look away Leaving will be your mistake" do you wanna step through through that door Of liars and cheats and scoundrels who Will tear apart every piece of you And chain your soul down with 'em too Little girl you've got a lot to learn Of how the world will treat your turn If I were you I'd never speak Never let it turn on me You can scrape at the walls Claw through the floorboards break all the windows Refuse and ignore The answer in your hands You can blame the world For never letting you in But it's you in the box And the doors little lock Has the key already in So tick tock Watch it mocking you and every little move that you make You say "don't you dare look away" But staying will be your mistake Do you wanna step through that door Of liars and cheats and scoundrels yes But you've been avoiding all the best And the sunsets are calling There's a world you've left behind But it's not something you cannot find again Watch the clock, every second Don’t you dare lose the time There’s nothing better than now to be the most alive
9.
Ground Zero 06:13
Steady hand, tireless touch Some days dear your too much Too much for me Watch the phone, day and night Waiting but praying you won’t decide To call me to be by your side I’m tired, and restless From the distress you’re sending my way You can’t help everyone And believe me, that ain’t gonna change Carve yourself into my blood and bone Use me as a stepping stone I am the one you run to, 'cause you always knew There’s nothing I won’t do for you So I’ll build another bridge And I’ll dig another moat Just to change the distance between us By a meter or anything that comes close 'Cause I am balanced and sure That you’re still immature And I’ll keep pushing and pulling these waves 'Till they come back to shore And if this all cancels out When you line up the numbers in a row I’ll be left At Ground Zero Your words weigh heavy and hard And you show no regard For anything this does to me If I reach out, you shut down But come back around When I’m someone you need You dig yourself into my blood and bone You use me as your stepping stone I am the one you’ll fall on, I can’t go on Dragging you along So I’ll build another bridge And I’ll dig another moat Just to change the distance between us By a meter or anything that comes close 'Cause I am balanced and sure That you’re still immature And I’ll keep pushing and pulling these waves 'Till they come back to shore And if this all cancels out When you line up the numbers in a row I’ll be left At Ground Zero So I’ll build another bridge And I’ll dig another moat Just to change the distance between us By a meter or anything that comes close 'Cause I am suffocating but sure That you’re still immature But I’ll keep pushing and pulling these waves 'Till they come back to shore And since this all cancels out When you line up the numbers in a row I’ll be left At the start of the mess I'll be left At Ground Zero
10.
Blinding 04:54
They say in the beginning God turned on the light And in the brightest sun Came the shadows of the night Opposite, nonsymbiotic That’s what we are The dark expanse of space and A morning star Blinding We are blinding All or nothing, is what we equate Upsetting I’m always forgetting I can’t see the end either way If we collide then we burn A supernova of light that hurts my eyes Fly away, far and fast But in only dark, danger is disguised So hold it steady Shield your eyes or get ready Blinding We are blinding All or nothing, is what we equate Upsetting I’m always forgetting I can’t see the end either way Your bright flash of light blinds me To whatever’s coming behind But uncertainty is worse Darkness covers like a curse And everything’s a twisted lie Even if a heavenly angel Could pull the devil out of hell Which one would be blinded? That I haven’t decided Blinding We are blinding All or nothing, is what we equate Upsetting I’m always forgetting That I can’t see the end And I don’t know what I’m defending from But I guess it all depends On whether I fall or ascend
11.
MADDS Unsteady course Waves are rolling by Emotion is a rocking Like the boat tipping back and forth WILKE Can’t see the shore Only miles of sky I don’t think I’ll be docking Anytime, but I’m not sure WILKE There might be rocks to pierce the hull MADDS But the adventure is still wonderful! WILKE What if the tide turns me away? MADDS Then we’ll sail for land another day! BOTH The tide ahead, may be rough The destination is mysterious So I’m Sailing for you! MADDS Sway with the sun Our journey’s just begun So don’t shy now, be steady And I’ll shove when you are ready! WILKE I’d prefer not, The water may be colder than I thought Don’t wanna dive in I’m not sure if I’ll sink or swim! WILKE There might be rocks to pierce the hull MADDS But the adventure is still wonderful! WILKE What if the tide turns me away? MADDS Then we’ll sail for land another day! BOTH The tide ahead, may be rough The destination is mysterious So I’m Sailing for you! WILKE I’ve got no anchor to secure where we are! MADDS If you keep yourself on hold you’ll never get very far! You’re scared as hell, but why should you be? WILKE But what if they just don’t like me??? MADDS Ah dude, you’re a swell kinda guy Keep a straight course, you’ll be fine!! WILKE I’ll be fine... WILKE The course a heads uncharted MADDS But you’re farther than where you’ve started WILKE I might need a nudge to be ready MADDS Then I’ll make sure to keep you steady!!! BOTH The tide ahead, may be rough The destination is mysterious So I'm I'm I'm WILKE Sailing for you! BOTH Sailing for you Sailing for you Sailing for you
12.
I woke up at seven and Waited 'till eleven Just waiting for my body to Even have the energy to Roll out of bed And I sat there thinking about How my world came down So suddenly A hole opened up and I never saw it coming Rubble crushing dreams I never knew I never needed And a door in my face saying this is my place No going back So Knock on wood because you’re getting something good And you never know when the balance will finally tip over so Knock on wood Because you can and always should Keep an even scale Even when you prevail keep knocking on wood Not to be pessimistic But things can always twist in poor favor It’s the good times you have to savor But you can’t bathe in glory for too long You need a reminder to keep on the ground where you belong So Knock on wood because you’re getting something good And you never know when the balance will finally tip over so Knock on wood Because you can and always should Keep an even scale Even when you prevail keep knocking on wood Time can be tragic And life will always pass you But stay with the feeling Don’t stop believing that it’ll work soon Just keep a level head For the shaking road that lies in ahead And keep your knuckles tapping when you’re too far ahead Knock on wood Prepare for something good (It’s been a hell of a year oh It’s been a hell of a year oh It’s been a hell of a year oh oooo) (Seventeen please be good to me Please be better than all the rest And if you can’t I’ll just wait for Eighteen) Knock on wood because you’re getting something good Seventeen you’ve been good to me But I think Eighteen's going pretty swell

about

This album is about the one on one connections that I've made with the people around me this past year, and the experiences that have come from them. They've been winding, binding, and sometimes they've been something I'd be better off without, but they're all experiences that have made me the person I am today. Senior year has been a wild ride from start to finish, and I hope that everyone keeps a good eye on what keeps us together- because it can be as fragile as a single line of string.


Special thanks to all my muses, and a very big thanks to all the teachers who helped make this happen:

Chris Gemkow, for working with me from beginning to end, all 4 years, and even coming in early mornings to work and do recordings with me. You are an inspiration to many and an amazing resource for young musicians.

Mike Pavlik and Ray Ostwald, for your never ending support and motivation.

Bill Riddle, for helping me grow as a musician and a musical theorist. Morning jazz band will be an experience I'll never forget!

Becky Marianetti, for pushing my music onto the stage and setting me on a journey I never thought I'd be on.

And to Lisa Griffith, the woman who helped shape my voice into what it is today. I am eternally grateful for your role as a mentor in my life, and for helping me keep my center in all the chaos.

Thank you to everyone who helped me on my way here, and most importantly:

to John and Anne Buckley, for not only being the most supportive parents, but for giving me the opportunities I've had to experiment and find my own way. : )

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released May 10, 2018

The Fantastic Andrew French on Bass
Recorded, Mixed and Mastered by Tim Flynn at AudioWall Studios

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