1. |
Waking Up
04:30
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I’m not one for this and that
So there’s no reason to question why
I always seem to lack
The will or determination
For any conversation dealing with you
And me
And where everyone seems to think where we should be
But I’m still stuck
Haven’t had enough
Even if all of this is fruitless
I still wanna pursue this
It’s right about now
I should be waking up from you
It’s all I can endure
Should be giving up
But if memories fade then
I’m not waiting anymore
Oh I can try
But I can’t hide that I’ve
Realized what lies inside
But I promise I’m waking up after this
Back and forth, here and there
We never seem to get anywhere
Like the questions we always pass off to each other
It’s like a circle of yes and no and maybe
Call me cautious or call me crazy
I’m stuck at a crossroads
Of how far the distance should go
This feels one sided am I right
In saying that I shouldn’t try
To get any closer than this?
Pull me close push me away
Give me moment just to say
That if you could give me a try
I guarantee, I don’t lie
That I’ll back off if it’s not to your liking
It’s right about now
I should be waking up from you
It’s all I can endure
Should be giving up
But if memories fade then
I’m not waiting anymore
Oh I can try
But I can’t hide that I’ve
Realized what lies inside
Just give me one chance
One last dance
Doesn’t have to end up with romance
No perfect night, no rose, no kiss
'Cause I’m waking up right after this
If the dreams too sweet,
I’ll never want to leave
It’s right about now
I should be waking up
From you but it’s too soon I’m sure
Should be giving up
And if memories fade then
I’m not waiting anymore
I can try
But I can’t hide that I’ve
Realized what lies inside
But I promise I’m waking up
Shake me harder so I wake up
I promise I’m waking up, after this.
A dream that you wish your heart didn’t make
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2. |
An Ending Like This
04:48
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Midnight late rides, a car crammed full of laughter
Who could've guessed Miss Loneliness
Found herself away from her disaster
A worthwhile endeavor, she’s getting much better
At not holding it in
If words are too hard she can grab a guitar and let the song begin
Well she’s farther than she started, that’s for sure
Who could have predicted an ending like this?
It’s better than what she ever wanted, so much more
With people she’s found she’ll already miss
She’s been learning, yearning for someone
To sweep her off her feet or maybe tell her that she’s stellar or that they love her at least
But she’ll still be content in the end
‘Cause after all, a friend is a friend
And that’s still something new, still something sweet
Well she’s farther than she started, that’s for sure
Who could have predicted an ending like this?
It’s better than what she ever wanted, so much more
With people she’s found she’ll already miss
And the years weren’t perfect
But she’s starting to learn that that’s all right
She needed punctures that hurt
To give some worth to the holes that let down the sky
Lit up with stars, what’s mine and what’s ours
Doesn’t matter when it’s all that we’ve got
And if you agree, that this is to be
A final send off
And we’re farther than we started, that’s for sure
And I’d never have thought we’d end up all like this
I hope you’re better than you ever wanted and much more
With lights up above
A send off with love
From the memories you’ve called your own
From the place that you’ve called home
From the people that you’ve known
And who could have thought it would end like this?
With people you already miss
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3. |
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I should not be writing a song about you
And all the things you unintentionally put me through
But I guess at some point this had to come out of my head
Better than another contemplating late night in bed
You give me
Fickle and falsified feelings of fate
An overwhelming dread that I’m always too late
An overabundance of warnings blaring red
I feel like I’m tied to you at the arm
'Cause something aches when you’re too far
These days I have to be careful where I tread
'Cause heartstrings pull taut
Tangled wires have me caught
The strings that tie us together always fray at my end
I’m so scared that a pull in the wrong direction
Will put an end to this connection
The strings that tie us together
Always fray at my end
Oh, at this point I’m more fearful that my messages don’t send
We built ourselves a cup telephone
But it always seems to be on hold
'Cause we’re never at the right distance for a tight string
So when no one’s around I talk into it
And when I’m brave enough I’ll finally do it
Spill my heart to you and say everything
But heartstrings pull taut
Don’t rip 'em out, they’re all I’ve got
The strings that tie us together always Fray at my end
I’m so scared that a pull in the wrong direction
Will put an end to this connection
The strings that tie us together
Always fray at my end
Oh, at this point I’m more fearful that my messages don’t-
I need clarification
To simplify the situtation
Am I the only one retying?
I need to let you know
That I don’t want to let you go
And that’s why it’s so trying
I’m new at this that’s obvious
But please don’t let it be the scissors to
Cut us apart
Let me see how I can be
Somebody who can
Handle holding this
The strings that tie us together always Fray at my end
I’m so scared that a pull in the wrong direction
Will put an end to this fragile
The strings that tie us together
Always fray at my end
Oh, at this point I’m more fearful that my messages
Don’t send
Don’t send
Don’t send
Oh, at this point I’m more fearful that you’ll never understand
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4. |
I Don't Want To Give Up
03:37
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Ask me your questions
I'll respond politely
That doesn't mean I’ll be correct
Tell me your problems
I’ll answer back lovingly
But that doesn’t mean I connect
If I am the ocean
You’re the sky that colors me
And I can hide within your blue
But if you think I’m sorry
Pathetic, unworthy
Well I’m just the reflection of you
And I’ve tried my best to do you right
But you never can take the favor
You’ve seen me bleed, and let me be
So maybe doing nothing is better
But still I don’t wanna give up no
I don’t wanna give up on you
I know that I’d feel better
My face is always wetter
With your twisted truths
I’ll be weighed down
Held to the ground by you
But still I don’t wanna give up no
I don't wanna give up on you
Give me your opinions
And I’ll take them as they come
But realize that your interpretation of skies
Isn't the only one
Storm clouds of gray when you don’t get your way
Shades of blue if you do
Makes me wonder why
You don’t ditch the disguise
And stop seeing me through a mirror of you
And I've tried my best to do you right
But something tells me to try to stay
And you’ve seen my bleed, and let me be
But I just can’t seem to go away
'Cause I don’t wanna give up no
I don’t wanna give up on you
I know that I’d feel better
My face is always wetter
With your twisted truth
I’ll be weighed down
Held to the ground by you
But still I don’t wanna give up no
I don't wanna give up on you
There's something that hangs around
That I’m afraid to face
Oh, and it dangles out of reach
So far away
I keep pleading
Needing
For you to notice I’m not worthless
And this would hurt less if I could let you go
But still I don’t wanna give up no
I don’t wanna give up on you
I know that I’d feel better
My face is always wetter
With your twisted truth
I’ll be weighed down
Held to the ground by you
But still I don’t wanna give up no
I don’t wanna give up no
I don’t wanna give up no
I don’t wanna give up
I don't wanna give up no
I don't wanna give up on
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5. |
Tell Me Your Secrets
04:15
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I’ve been feeling down
And I’ve been passing out
Hand scripted writings from the wall
I’ve been losing sleep
I find it hard to eat
When emotion fills my lungs
The water coming down
And I can feel the echoes on their way
Hold on tight for the sound wave
To rock me back and forth
And I need a hand to hold onto
But I’m afraid I’d be losing you
Tell me your secrets
That’s where we can start
Conversation opens up
With wounds that left scars
Nothing too deep, nothing too hard
But tell me your secrets
It’s a good place to start
Listen I’m self-conscious
I don’t give out much
I stir up the nonsense
So it feels like I’m mixing it up
But I’m stuck in a cycle
A counter clockwise counter attack
Seeps into my vessels
And I’m thrown right back
And these days I feel defenseless
But I need to know I’m not the only one with messy senses
Tell me your secrets
That’s where we can start
Conversation opens up
With wounds that left scars
Nothing too deep, nothing too hard
But tell me your secrets
It’s a good place to start
Give me something back
So I know that I’m not pulling you under
Show me you won’t crack under the weight
'Cause I’m afraid
Oh so afraid
Tell me your secrets
That’s where we can start
Conversation opens up
With wounds that left scars
Nothing too deep, nothing too hard
But tell me your secrets
It’s a good place to start
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6. |
Reset
03:41
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You ever keep something locked away?
And you know that it’s never gonna see the light of day
'Cause it’s embarrassing
Stupid, even
Keep it under lock and key,
Trust me it’s nothing you want to see
But you say you do
And this conversations something we’ve been through a lot
Look I get it, curiosity has charm
And you feel like I’m not giving everything you are
But possibilities play in my head
Disaster, distress, and oncoming dread
Are not the things I need right now
There’s only one way one how
I need a reset
That’s the only way
Like a button so I can get out the things I need to say
And when I press it
You won’t remember a thing
But at least you can feel like you were listening
I need a
Reset, reset, a reset, a reset
I need a
Reset, reset, a reset
Ok, say I spill, what do you do then?
Now that it’s out in the open
No walls to defend it
I’m glad you trust me, but I’m only comfortable so deep
And the shallows are as far as I’m willing to be
You can tell me you’re sturdy, tell me you’re fine
But it’s not like I can read your mind
I like the distance
There’s more assurance
That no one else is gonna fall from my momentary courage
'Cause the body’s not a pretty sight
When it’s guts are spilled before your eyes
And who will clean the mess?
Don’t tell me that you will!
Your jobs not to be an emotional refill
I need a reset
Like some insurance
When things go awry
Go back to when it was alright
I press it
You don’t remember a thing
So at least I knew you were listening
I need a
Reset, reset, a reset, a reset
I need a
Reset, reset, a reset
And I know you’re insecure about the weight but so am I
But let’s be honest, emotions are cheap to come by
We’ve all got our faults
We’ve all got our scars
Maybe I’d like mine to stay in the dark
It’s nothing personal
Just a choice
And maybe I’m running from the harder one
But I don’t think we should build this on sadness and redemption
So if you’re gonna do this, there’s only one exception
A reset
This won’t come up again
We tell our little pity tales, and that’s it, the end
Press the button when we’re done
And we’re back, we’ve begun a clean slate
A clean slate
A
Reset, reset, a reset, a reset
I need a
Reset, reset, a reset
No lingering
Distress, distress, distress, distress in a
Reset, reset
A reset
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7. |
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BOTH
Look at me while I’m still here
Look at me before I vanish
Do you have any idea
JOE
Look at me while I’m still awake
MADDS
About all I can take
Look at me while I love you
JOE
Before I undo it all
BOTH
Just give me a sign
Just a whisper
That when you see me on the other side
You’ll recognize that I’m there
Just give me a call
I’ll give it my all
But how can you prove it to me this time you promise to care
MADDS
Look at the cuts and scrapes
JOE
Look at the cuts and scrapes
MADDS
Before they all wash away
JOE
Before they all wash away
BOTH
Do you have any idea
MADDS
Look at the bruises grow
BOTH
In places not to show
You should be much much smarter than this you know
Just give me a sign
Just a whisper
That when you see me on the other side
You’ll recognize that I’m there
Just give me a call
I’ll give it my all
But how can you prove it to me this time you promise to care
JOE
No guarantee
MADDS
No guarantee
JOE
That you are me
MADDS
That you are me
JOE
But I can’t
BOTH
See you when I meet your eyes
JOE
Fall silently
MADDS
Fall silently
BOTH
Will I ever be
Anything more than a reflection
JOE
Of who I used to be
MADDS
Just give me a sign
JOE
A sign
MADDS
Just a whisper
JOE
Whisper
MADDS
That when you see me on the other side
BOTH
You’ll/I’ll recognize that I’m there
MADDS
Just give me a call
JOE
I’ll give it my all
BOTH
But how can you prove it to me this time you promise to care
MADDS
Look at me while I’m still here
JOE
Look at me before I vanish
BOTH
Do you have any idea
MADDS
Look at me while you’re still awake
JOE
About all I can take
BOTH
Look at me while I love you
Before I undo it all
So when you look in the mirror
Do you see anyone at all?
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8. |
A Lot To Learn
03:24
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Watch the clock
And wonder who said that time flys by
Keep counting hours and minutes and seconds
In the same interval of time
If all you can do is waste away
In waiting for the hands to change
You might as well be alone in this room for good
So tick tock watch it mocking
You and every little move that you make
It says "don't you dare look away
Leaving will be your mistake"
Do you wanna step through through that door
Of liars and cheats and scoundrels who
Will tear apart every piece of you
And chain your soul down with 'em too
Little girl you've got a lot to learn
Of how the world will treat your turn
If I were you I'd never speak
Never let it turn on me
You've got a mind and a mouth and a body attached
But let's be honest they're not matching up
You think of just how everything would be better
If you could just shut up
But the worlds not that forgiving
And if you keep on sitting
Patience runs thin like the wire you're on
So tick tock watch it mocking
You and every little move that you make
It says "don't you dare look away
Leaving will be your mistake"
do you wanna step through through that door
Of liars and cheats and scoundrels who
Will tear apart every piece of you
And chain your soul down with 'em too
Little girl you've got a lot to learn
Of how the world will treat your turn
If I were you I'd never speak
Never let it turn on me
You can scrape at the walls
Claw through the floorboards break all the windows
Refuse and ignore
The answer in your hands
You can blame the world
For never letting you in
But it's you in the box
And the doors little lock
Has the key already in
So tick tock
Watch it mocking you and every little move that you make
You say "don't you dare look away"
But staying will be your mistake
Do you wanna step through that door
Of liars and cheats and scoundrels yes
But you've been avoiding all the best
And the sunsets are calling
There's a world you've left behind
But it's not something you cannot find again
Watch the clock, every second
Don’t you dare lose the time
There’s nothing better than now to be the most alive
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9. |
Ground Zero
06:13
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Steady hand, tireless touch
Some days dear your too much
Too much for me
Watch the phone, day and night
Waiting but praying you won’t decide
To call me to be by your side
I’m tired, and restless
From the distress you’re sending my way
You can’t help everyone
And believe me, that ain’t gonna change
Carve yourself into my blood and bone
Use me as a stepping stone
I am the one you run to, 'cause you always knew
There’s nothing I won’t do for you
So I’ll build another bridge
And I’ll dig another moat
Just to change the distance between us
By a meter or anything that comes close
'Cause I am balanced and sure
That you’re still immature
And I’ll keep pushing and pulling these waves
'Till they come back to shore
And if this all cancels out
When you line up the numbers in a row
I’ll be left
At Ground Zero
Your words weigh heavy and hard
And you show no regard
For anything this does to me
If I reach out, you shut down
But come back around
When I’m someone you need
You dig yourself into my blood and bone
You use me as your stepping stone
I am the one you’ll fall on, I can’t go on
Dragging you along
So I’ll build another bridge
And I’ll dig another moat
Just to change the distance between us
By a meter or anything that comes close
'Cause I am balanced and sure
That you’re still immature
And I’ll keep pushing and pulling these waves
'Till they come back to shore
And if this all cancels out
When you line up the numbers in a row
I’ll be left
At Ground Zero
So I’ll build another bridge
And I’ll dig another moat
Just to change the distance between us
By a meter or anything that comes close
'Cause I am suffocating but sure
That you’re still immature
But I’ll keep pushing and pulling these waves
'Till they come back to shore
And since this all cancels out
When you line up the numbers in a row
I’ll be left
At the start of the mess
I'll be left
At Ground Zero
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10. |
Blinding
04:54
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They say in the beginning
God turned on the light
And in the brightest sun
Came the shadows of the night
Opposite, nonsymbiotic
That’s what we are
The dark expanse of space and
A morning star
Blinding
We are blinding
All or nothing, is what we equate
Upsetting
I’m always forgetting
I can’t see the end either way
If we collide then we burn
A supernova of light that hurts my eyes
Fly away, far and fast
But in only dark, danger is disguised
So hold it steady
Shield your eyes or get ready
Blinding
We are blinding
All or nothing, is what we equate
Upsetting
I’m always forgetting
I can’t see the end either way
Your bright flash of light blinds me
To whatever’s coming behind
But uncertainty is worse
Darkness covers like a curse
And everything’s a twisted lie
Even if a heavenly angel
Could pull the devil out of hell
Which one would be blinded?
That I haven’t decided
Blinding
We are blinding
All or nothing, is what we equate
Upsetting
I’m always forgetting
That I can’t see the end
And I don’t know what I’m defending from
But I guess it all depends
On whether I fall or ascend
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11. |
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MADDS
Unsteady course
Waves are rolling by
Emotion is a rocking
Like the boat tipping back and forth
WILKE
Can’t see the shore
Only miles of sky
I don’t think I’ll be docking
Anytime, but I’m not sure
WILKE
There might be rocks to pierce the hull
MADDS
But the adventure is still wonderful!
WILKE
What if the tide turns me away?
MADDS
Then we’ll sail for land another day!
BOTH
The tide ahead, may be rough
The destination is mysterious
So I’m
Sailing for you!
MADDS
Sway with the sun
Our journey’s just begun
So don’t shy now, be steady
And I’ll shove when you are ready!
WILKE
I’d prefer not,
The water may be colder than I thought
Don’t wanna dive in
I’m not sure if I’ll sink or swim!
WILKE
There might be rocks to pierce the hull
MADDS
But the adventure is still wonderful!
WILKE
What if the tide turns me away?
MADDS
Then we’ll sail for land another day!
BOTH
The tide ahead, may be rough
The destination is mysterious
So I’m
Sailing for you!
WILKE
I’ve got no anchor to secure where we are!
MADDS
If you keep yourself on hold you’ll never get very far!
You’re scared as hell, but why should you be?
WILKE
But what if they just don’t like me???
MADDS
Ah dude, you’re a swell kinda guy
Keep a straight course, you’ll be fine!!
WILKE
I’ll be fine...
WILKE
The course a heads uncharted
MADDS
But you’re farther than where you’ve started
WILKE
I might need a nudge to be ready
MADDS
Then I’ll make sure to keep you steady!!!
BOTH
The tide ahead, may be rough
The destination is mysterious
So I'm
I'm
I'm
WILKE
Sailing for you!
BOTH
Sailing for you
Sailing for you
Sailing for you
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12. |
Knock On Wood
03:54
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I woke up at seven and
Waited 'till eleven
Just waiting for my body to
Even have the energy to
Roll out of bed
And I sat there thinking about
How my world came down
So suddenly
A hole opened up and I never saw it coming
Rubble crushing dreams I never knew I never needed
And a door in my face saying this is my place
No going back
So
Knock on wood because you’re getting something good
And you never know when the balance will finally tip over so
Knock on wood
Because you can and always should
Keep an even scale
Even when you prevail keep knocking on wood
Not to be pessimistic
But things can always twist in poor favor
It’s the good times you have to savor
But you can’t bathe in glory for too long
You need a reminder to keep on the ground where you belong
So
Knock on wood because you’re getting something good
And you never know when the balance will finally tip over so
Knock on wood
Because you can and always should
Keep an even scale
Even when you prevail keep knocking on wood
Time can be tragic
And life will always pass you
But stay with the feeling
Don’t stop believing that it’ll work soon
Just keep a level head
For the shaking road that lies in ahead
And keep your knuckles tapping when you’re too far ahead
Knock on wood
Prepare for something good
(It’s been a hell of a year oh
It’s been a hell of a year oh
It’s been a hell of a year oh oooo)
(Seventeen please be good to me
Please be better than all the rest
And if you can’t I’ll just wait for Eighteen)
Knock on wood because you’re getting something good
Seventeen you’ve been good to me
But I think Eighteen's going pretty swell
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